My new pulmonary doctor
is located at the Lewis Cancer Research Pavilion off of Reynolds. After
my
doctor’s appointment I was walking out to my car when I saw this in the lobby
and it grabbed my attention. I read the placard and was moved by what it said:
Ring this bell
Three times all’s
well
It’s toll to clearly say
My Treatments done
Or a milestone won
And I am on my way
I don’t have cancer and somehow felt like it wasn’t my
place to even consider ringing this bell. I wanted to show respect to the
people who had fought and earned that right because I can sympathize. I did
take that picture because I knew I’d want to remember this moment.
As
I walked out to my car I remembered the past eleven years of living with kidney
disease and dialysis. The number of ways it’s impacted my life to trying to
just live normally overwhelmed me: Lugging
that damn cycler on vacations and trips for NxStage, not being able to camp for
more than two nights. having to stick myself with damn buttonhole needles
nightly, the pain from that, not being able to make love to wife when the urge
hits us while hooked to my dialysis machine, labs, fatigue, maintaining a
fulltime teaching gig, missing tour guiding were just a few of the thought
going through my head as I fumbled for my keys to unlock the Falcon.
The
key was in my hand when that line hit me. “Or a milestone won”
Getting on the Transplant List for a kidney has got to count for something and it's a milestone for me. ......
I
walked back and rang the hell out of that bell and I walked out like Judd
Nelson at the end of The Breakfast Club.
Screw
you, kidney disease
Cue Simple Minds song.... |
March is National Kidney Month. Love your kidneys. Trust me, it's a divorce you don't want....
No comments:
Post a Comment